being older does not provide the right to stay out later or to go home less. I see no reason why younger people will have to go home early, while the older ones stay out and party till the wee hours.
male and female alike, i dun approve of staying out late

i would like to know, what's community ? it seems to me that catering to a person's need is based on what i think the person's need is and not what the person truly needs.
i'll get straight to the point, i dun like it when someone say "who would like it?", "who would find that interesting?"
it just irks me, i find it hard to bear cause though the activity may seem boring to me, it may not seem so for another person.
i personally enjoy cooking, enjoy taking care of people. And i find that through volunteer work, i can form a connection with others, however, there are also people who put me down saying "if the person is new here, you think they will be willing to just follow along or take part actively ?"
when asked for suggestions for outings, people always look towards the common areas such as beach, zoo, bird park, sentosa etc... but the ideas that come to my mind is places like museums, hill tops, garden ...
i get that i am different, but i dun get it when others can so selfishly stick to their own ideas and not be willing to accept difference.
it irks me, i've said it before, but up till now, no changes, it still irks me

Happy Birthday !!

Happy Birthday to the following people:

Asher
My brother ! haha, really felt very sorry that on that night that i was suppose to go home early to celebrate his birthday, i reached home only at around 10pm, apparently he was already very very tired but yet he still stayed awake, waiting for me to come home and celebrate his birthday with him ! Its amazing how God have carried me through my relationship with him, with periods of "over protective", "anger" and eventually love. I look forward to seeing your growth physically mentally and also spiritually. Really looking forward to your future !

Siew Yu
Siew Yu ! haha, exact same birthday as my brother, but 11 years earlier, haha. Anyway, it was great having you as a sister in christ, thanks for your genuine sharing, being transparent in your life, it was really encouraging !

Siew Sia
Siew Sia ! I wanna thank you for your openness, for the various times where you have accepted compliments and also given them out. Cause i realized somewhere in my walk that not every is open to receiving positivity and blessings. It is good to know that you are not just giving, but you are also accepting as well. more than just blessing others, you also provided the chance for others to bless by receiving

Christine Chew
Just felt that God has so much more in store for you ! it has been great laughing and joking with you, during chats, meet up and such. though you probably might felt that it was nothing much, but yet that simple act of laughing together with another person is really able to bring them joy. Let go of all that you have and let God take the lead in all you do!

Jaslyn
Jaslyn ! stay really close to me and that i constantly ask her for help with regards to information that i need to know about GB. Your faithfulness and perseverance is commendable, from you leading your small group, providing encouragements and edifying the people around you, it all makes a difference. So many things can get swept under the rug and go unnoticed, but yet you still served with all you can.

80th Post ! I may or may not be getting my guitar next month, will need to depend on whether i can save up sufficient cash, hopefully i can though :D wanna get Maestro SD3 and a ukelele !

i have successfully learnt "you hold me now" on guitar ! happy :D

It is tough to reply a genuine ok to someone who ask me not to worry

Titus 1:15

To the pure, all things are pure, but to those who are corrupted and do not believe, nothing is pure. In fact, both their mind and consciences are corrupt.

The above verse has made quite an impact on me. I have to admit that my past weeks have not been great, it has been rather rocky I would say.

The above verse just reminded me of my past week, the bad things that have happened, the bad decisions I have made and the things i have felt unhappy about. Everything just ran through my head as I read the verse.

Titus 1:15 tells me not to be wishy washy about the important decisions I make daily. Very often I find myself contemplating between choices, worrying about whether I have made the right choice even though that should not be the case. Every once in a while I think that a massive decision will come by, but it should not occur too often. It sets the line for me, am I going to trust God or not ? I realize that if I am well rooted in God, I do not have to worry, there will be things that I get anxious about but at the same time, I can trust in God to help me tide over them. However, if there exist in me, an area of doubt, an area of disbelief, then even if God wanted to help me, it would be futile since I harbored disbelief.

I got to say that it is not easy having that much trust, it is difficult to rely solely on the Father alone and live a "my life is in God's hands" life. However, it is not impossible, being a worry wart for years now, I want to work my way towards having that trust in God, that regardless of the surroundings, that regardless of what might happen next, I want to be able to say that God is in control.

I just realized today that the place where people are born into, decides half of their fate.

I used to think that everyone would more or less be the same, like .. regardless of their surroundings, their circumstance. I believed that if a person tried hard enough then anything is possible. But today, i realized that ... that is not the case...

I found out that the place in which a person is born into, will shape their future and their mentality in one way or another.

Take for example a person that is:

born into a poor family, would value cash alot

born into a family that doesn't know how to reflect love, would value being loved alot

For me, I am born into a blessed family, there have been tough times, but in general, all has been good. Yet I feel disheartened at times, because I cannot relate to families that are not as blessed.

I want understanding, I want to know what it is like to have a bumpy life, to have a bad start. It means so much to me, to be able to understand to your situation.

None but God alone can bring me there, to the place of understanding.

perhaps i'm like over sensitive ? but why do i keep getting the feeling that i'm offending someone ?

love is in abundance in this world, the problem is that people choose not to see it, they dun say it and they have no idea how to express it out.

its so simple, just telling ur friend "I love you" or "you are loved", just to let them know that they are cherished. but yet it is also very very difficult, when was the last time you told someone that you cherished them ? when was the last time you told someone that you loved them ?

Love is in abundance all around, start showing people love. Christ started the ball rolling by giving His life, now you just have to pass it on

most likely will be guitar-ing every saturday before service

people always want to do things, but yet hardly anyone steps up to actually doing it

what's holding you back from doing what you want ? schedule ? obstacles ? lack of manpower ? or the uncertainty ?

i find it to be very very weird that people can so easily voice out about the things they want to do, but yet hardly anyone gets down to really doing it.

truthfully, if you are not gonna do anything about it and simply just babble, then i would rather you not talk about it. talk is cheap, loads of people say of their dreams , but only a small fraction actually put in the effort to accomplish and work towards it.

today i've gotten the full set of the vongola rings (version2)

when the purchase was made, i was initially happy, cause they look awesome ! with the shiny surface, glistening under the lightings, haha. they truely look beautiful, but then ... the bad new is that my brother already broke the sky ring already, so now the sky ring is without the gemstone in the middle.

at first i was really really very irritated, cause its like it broke just like that ! i haven gotten a chance to let it rest on my finger and the thing is that after my brother broke the ring, there was no remorse, neither did he apologise. i can tell that he is guilty though, but seriously, i understand that he is still young and all, but come on dude, isn't part of the basics to simply apologize ? like seriously, he broke the ring and didn't say sorry, and just returned it to me and disappeared from the scene. no sense of responsibility at all !

i really couldn't get over it, its like seriously, when you break something, at least apologize ! when i ask him how ? (since he broke it) he simply replied saying "dun keep asking me how, cause i dunno"

wa ... my blood boil ah , totally infuriated by my brother's lack of responsibility and ownership.

training !

we train to be better, to grow.

hmm... for my spiritual life, i would have to admit that i have not been living on a healthy growth, its my mentality i guess ? somethings seems to be wrong, like i'm not really loving God. do you ever feel that way ? like you feel that you aren't suppose to be this loved, not suppose to where you are today. or feel like you are so lowly, that you yourself never gave it your all. cause that's more or less what I'm feeling now.

just get the terrible feeling and constantly thinking to myself "what am i doing ?!?" and the more i dwell on it, the more demoralized i feel.

shall continue working on what not right, and aim towards getting closer.

Strive to live in TRUTH with my inner being, only God and I really know whats within my own heart.

i'm like super tired now and i dun have any motivation to do my work. school has been good, though i cant say that about my own life though, thank God for His second chance

I should stop thinking so much and focus on what God has in store for me! renewal, renewal will come !

I just realised that i have a terrible schedule, everyday is so packed, so full... i really wonder if i am still able to make time for volunteering. Its a crazy schedule, i'm fully booked on a daily basis from 10am to 6pm, friday i'm booked till 7pm. Saturday is church day, i effectively spend my day at church, after that I either join my parents for dinner or i'll be settling my own dinner. either way, i basically dun get any work done on saturdays. As for sundays, i'm either out for the entire day or at home for the entire day, its the only day of the week that is consistently empty for my schedule, i hardly have anything on sundays, which makes it my only family day.....

where do i find time to squeeze in volunteering ? where do i find time to minister back to the youths ?

weariness opens the door for one to lose control over the mental war. Ever realize that when you are tired, you get agitated easily ? that you get more emotionally unstable ? become more self-centered ?

no matter the circumstance, one should never give in to the mental + spiritual battle, when you lose the mental war, you will be at a great disadvantage in the spiritual war.

Context ..

context is different for everyone, it can differ massively, be worlds apart. no 2 person have the exact same context due to different past experience and different feelings due to the experiences.

I want to give out more to my society, but I need companions also, I dun wanna be alone. I'm not alone and I dun want to believe the devil when he says that I am cause I'm sure that I'm not :D

join me ?? everyone has got power, the power to change/ cause change. God, I need companion ship, companions that share the same visions, to encourage and push each other on.

i realise that searching for a singaporean that uses their youtube account to glorify God is superbly near zero, so far, the only person i found is jedimindless and kennygohweizhi, if you know of other youtubers that are singaporeans and glorify God, let me know, i would be very interested to get to know them