Today sermon is about sexual relationships...

Anyway, keeping myself single is difficult for me.. I know that everyone finds it difficult due to the puberty stage that we are all going through..

For me.. i get jealous when i see people walking in pairs.. couples everywhere... people going to school together.. going home together... i constantly wish that i could have a christian friend that is able to accompany me as and when it is possible.. travel place to place together..

more than just accompany.. i sometimes also wish that i could have someone to hug for comfort. unlike females, it is considered normal for them to be hugging each other. but between males.. it is just weird. i am not talking about the hug then straight release sort of thing. i am talking about the very encouraging type of hugs.. hugs that last for a good 30 seconds at least... hugs that comfort.

being a typical 18 year old, i crave for a female companion. but based on current situations, i wun be having one.

somehow, i have developed a fear of church girls. talk too much with them, and stupid rumors arise. I hate it !! have been wishing for a female best friend for very long already. but i am not maintaining it.

Used to chat with WanTing and Christine de. WanTing can be considered to be one of my Best friends ba. that was really a period of time where i really really enjoyed. I dare to say that i have not developed any feelings for her, although every now and then (during that period of time) i did ask myself if i have fallen for her. but thinking back, i realise that i have not. It was purely just a close friendship. Simply just friends helping each other. Whats wrong with that?? anyway.. some problem arose some time later and we reduced our contact with each other drastically. that was 2 years ago.. communication ceased for a year, and it was only around the mid of last month that i started contacting her again. I wanna forge close friendships with females. I'll be truthful and admit that. but at the same time, i hate rumors. I am not that much afraid of falling in love, cause i learned from ShunJi that love is a decision, not a feeling. Really hope that i can restore the close friendship that i used to have with her.

Christine was another female friend of mine.. during sec 3 and sec 4 use to sms her alot, but the thing is.. that i hardly talk to her. in other words, we sms alot. but number of verbal words exchanged were probably less than 10. SMS with her can talk alot of rubbish, say alot of nonsense.. make fun each other.. I would have to say that it indeed felt comfortable communicating with her. but communication also stopped when she entered JC. Both of us too busy, i busy with project, she busy with school work. Now once in a while i will sms her.. but not very often though, i still dun exchange verbal words with her alot XD

Now is i spend quite abit of time with LifeGroup.. but somehow i still feel lonely at times.. i still find it hard to simply pick up my phone and contact them. Its seems so much easier if it is a female, but when it comes to LG, the difficulty somehow that rocketed sky high. I wonder if LG is able to make up or replace my desire to have a female companion.

Head hurts like crazy now, gonna go sleep lerh, pray for me !!

Make Believe

Alien named XXX comes to earth.

Alien tries communicating with humans.

Alien’s appearance scares people.

Alien gets rejected and ostracized by people.

Alien feels down and shuns away from the crowd.

Alien finds an island to reside at.

Island is deserted.

Island has nothing but trees.

Alien was good in sculpting.

Alien decides to do sculptures.

Alien makes use of trees for his sculptures.

Aliens form “human-like” objects to comfort himself.

Alien feels satisfied with result of sculpting.

Alien flashes back about being rejected by humans.

Alien feels lonely again and wishes for companions.

Alien decides to create his make believe “friends”.

Alien finds happiness in creating his own dream.

Alien feels happy living in his make believe world.

This is story 1. Previous Post is story 2. Please tell me which story you personally prefer.

Titles are "Make Believe" and "The Blind Angel"

Thanks to all Voters

The Blind Angel

Main Characters:

Tsuno, Sai, Alfy (Angel)

Character Profiles:

Tsuno

Soft Spoken Girl

Secretive

Shy

Alone most of the times

Very Caring

Best Friend Sai

Parents constantly busy and have no time for her

Aids Sai in finding back his lost memories

Have no siblings

8 Years old girl at start of story

15 years old at later part of story

Loves Teddy Bears

Sai

Playful

Joyful

Secretly in Love with Tsuno

Good in art

Dies in an unfortunate car accident

Pleads for God to give him a second chance in life.

Exchanges vision and memory in order to protect Tsuno

Caring Parents

Have no siblings

8 years old at start of story

Dies at age 9

Alfy (Angel)

Guardian Angel of Tsuno

Sai’s Reincarnate form

Have no eyes due to contract with God

Lost his Memory due to contract with God

Lives in Tsuno

Story Outline:

Tsuno, 8 years old, was playing at the playground alone with teddy bear in hand.

Sai, 8 years old, approaches Tsuno and attempts making friends with her.

Tsuno ignores Sai and continues playing with teddy bear.

Sai sits beside Tsuno and plays with sand beside Tsuno.

Everyday, Tsuno and Sai would meet at the playground after school.

Tsuno gradually opens up to Sai and starts talking to him after a month.

Sai founds out that he is Tsuno’s first friend.

Sai learns of Tsuno’s family background.

Christmas is drawing nearer; Sai plans to give Tsuno a present to cheer her up.

Sai drew up a drawing for Tsuno and plans to surprise for Christmas.

Sai got involved in a car accident while delivering the present to Tsuno.

Tsuno and Sai’s parents wept over Boy’s death.

Sai, being secretly in love with Tsuno, asks God for another chance to accompany Tsuno.

God grants Sai’s wish but with the condition that Boy gives away his eyes and memory.

God then grants Sai a second life as an angel of Tsuno.

Sai now becomes an Angel name Alfy.

Alfy appears to Tsuno 1 day when she was crying.

Tsuno was shocked as Alfy came out from her.

Alfy explained that he had lost his memory and that he requires her help in finding back his lost memories, as she was his container.

Tsuno reluctantly agrees to it.

Series of adventures takes place; Alfy gradually gains back his memories.

Lost memories are all gathered and Alfy reverts back to Sai and is able to see Tsuno one last time before returning to where he came from- Death.

**Wrote this story at 1am in the morning**

this story... is base on an experience that happen to me... it does not reflect the true occurrence of what happened, just an actual experience that i wanna bring forth, add a twist to it and the story above formed.

update update !!

recently got nothing much to update... everyday go schl, do work, draw draw etc. my days are relatively routine.

Anyway... from the previous few posts... got see my hand injured???

my hand.... haven recover fully yet :)

now cannot see the blue-black, but.. sometimes when i turn my wrist, still can feel the pain..

and and my right hand now cannot carry heavy things, cannot even support heavy objects.

dangerous to hold laptop with right hand.. cause scared laptop will drop. and my laptop 2kg only.

sometimes i wonder, what if 1 day i lose my right hand how? then cannot draw, cannot take photo, cannot sms etc etc.

Another thing is that i recently bought Nikon D5000, but haven buy lens yet. what i have now is basic lens and the camera body.

woud be great if someone could advice me on what type of lens to buy...

update !! this is my palm on day 3. maybe from the front view the picture not so clear that got swelling...

but from the back view can see right?? obvious blue-black :)

see the sketchbook and pencil in the background? hahas, i cant draw well for the first 2 days of the blue-black. only managed to tahan on 3rd day onwards :)

BB Room !! went parade on friday then open the door to see that one of the frames was lying face flat on the ground !! oh no!! then i go use broom sweep. but it turns out that the broom is not effective, cause some of the pieces all quite big, so i use hand to pick up. then thank God samuel found a box to contain the glass pieces, so can dump everything inside :))

Swelling !!! hahas, can see ma? that is my right palm, can see the massive blue-black on the right side of the palm?? if use fingers as a gauge... is from middle to pinkie... :)) swell for quite a few days lerh.

today is the 4th day i think?? :) anyway, thats what it looks like in day 1, will upload photos of the swelling..

Below is photo taken by Edward during Settlers :))

loads of drawings to be completed !! hope i can complete them on time. car model is on its way, waiting for the next tutorial before i can commence on the actual modelling. i have got... 20 drawings or so to complete? around there, add all the assignments up, and the total number of drawings left is around 20.

all the best for me :)

I am like air to you, always there for you but you never notice. Always available but you never appreciate.

Major difference, is that without air, you would die in 3 secs, without me, you could easily live another 30 years.

Maybe it just my assumptions, i assumed wrongly. but that's definitely the message i receive from the way you treated me

every year it happens, get close to a girl and 6 months later the friendship is broken, every single year. history just keeps repeating.

Sometimes i wished that i had cared less. if i ... didnt care so much about wanting to do things for you.

we would probably still be sms buddies. i have no idea why i wanted to see you so much. maybe i'm cursed, or probably destined to have such a life. i tried hard

i tried hard to be someones best friend, i tried hard simply so that i could be important in somebody else's life.i dunno why i have to lose at least 1 friend every year. i told so many people. but noone seems to understand.

my heart is heavy, i have no idea what to do

this year will be crucial. will bet everything in this year.

God bless me

Do or Die... make or break... this year determines all. if i lose another friendship this year. i'll cut all ties with females. i cant take it anymore.

another wonderful friendship gone.

i think i got the talent of destroying friendships.

I'll harden my heart jasmin, if it makes you happy.

not gonna disrupt your happiness no more

I'm giving up, I tried so hard to change things... i told you the truth, you cried, i hide my feelings, you are at least happy. guess it is better to not let you really know how i feel. no more laughter, no more cries. since they are all from me, and anything from me, are deemed as worthless to you.

it's alright, it is perfectly alright.

like i said, we'll nvr talk for the rest of our lives, since i dun matter to you.

God bless you