being older does not provide the right to stay out later or to go home less. I see no reason why younger people will have to go home early, while the older ones stay out and party till the wee hours.
male and female alike, i dun approve of staying out late

i would like to know, what's community ? it seems to me that catering to a person's need is based on what i think the person's need is and not what the person truly needs.
i'll get straight to the point, i dun like it when someone say "who would like it?", "who would find that interesting?"
it just irks me, i find it hard to bear cause though the activity may seem boring to me, it may not seem so for another person.
i personally enjoy cooking, enjoy taking care of people. And i find that through volunteer work, i can form a connection with others, however, there are also people who put me down saying "if the person is new here, you think they will be willing to just follow along or take part actively ?"
when asked for suggestions for outings, people always look towards the common areas such as beach, zoo, bird park, sentosa etc... but the ideas that come to my mind is places like museums, hill tops, garden ...
i get that i am different, but i dun get it when others can so selfishly stick to their own ideas and not be willing to accept difference.
it irks me, i've said it before, but up till now, no changes, it still irks me

Happy Birthday !!

Happy Birthday to the following people:

Asher
My brother ! haha, really felt very sorry that on that night that i was suppose to go home early to celebrate his birthday, i reached home only at around 10pm, apparently he was already very very tired but yet he still stayed awake, waiting for me to come home and celebrate his birthday with him ! Its amazing how God have carried me through my relationship with him, with periods of "over protective", "anger" and eventually love. I look forward to seeing your growth physically mentally and also spiritually. Really looking forward to your future !

Siew Yu
Siew Yu ! haha, exact same birthday as my brother, but 11 years earlier, haha. Anyway, it was great having you as a sister in christ, thanks for your genuine sharing, being transparent in your life, it was really encouraging !

Siew Sia
Siew Sia ! I wanna thank you for your openness, for the various times where you have accepted compliments and also given them out. Cause i realized somewhere in my walk that not every is open to receiving positivity and blessings. It is good to know that you are not just giving, but you are also accepting as well. more than just blessing others, you also provided the chance for others to bless by receiving

Christine Chew
Just felt that God has so much more in store for you ! it has been great laughing and joking with you, during chats, meet up and such. though you probably might felt that it was nothing much, but yet that simple act of laughing together with another person is really able to bring them joy. Let go of all that you have and let God take the lead in all you do!

Jaslyn
Jaslyn ! stay really close to me and that i constantly ask her for help with regards to information that i need to know about GB. Your faithfulness and perseverance is commendable, from you leading your small group, providing encouragements and edifying the people around you, it all makes a difference. So many things can get swept under the rug and go unnoticed, but yet you still served with all you can.

80th Post ! I may or may not be getting my guitar next month, will need to depend on whether i can save up sufficient cash, hopefully i can though :D wanna get Maestro SD3 and a ukelele !

i have successfully learnt "you hold me now" on guitar ! happy :D

It is tough to reply a genuine ok to someone who ask me not to worry

Titus 1:15

To the pure, all things are pure, but to those who are corrupted and do not believe, nothing is pure. In fact, both their mind and consciences are corrupt.

The above verse has made quite an impact on me. I have to admit that my past weeks have not been great, it has been rather rocky I would say.

The above verse just reminded me of my past week, the bad things that have happened, the bad decisions I have made and the things i have felt unhappy about. Everything just ran through my head as I read the verse.

Titus 1:15 tells me not to be wishy washy about the important decisions I make daily. Very often I find myself contemplating between choices, worrying about whether I have made the right choice even though that should not be the case. Every once in a while I think that a massive decision will come by, but it should not occur too often. It sets the line for me, am I going to trust God or not ? I realize that if I am well rooted in God, I do not have to worry, there will be things that I get anxious about but at the same time, I can trust in God to help me tide over them. However, if there exist in me, an area of doubt, an area of disbelief, then even if God wanted to help me, it would be futile since I harbored disbelief.

I got to say that it is not easy having that much trust, it is difficult to rely solely on the Father alone and live a "my life is in God's hands" life. However, it is not impossible, being a worry wart for years now, I want to work my way towards having that trust in God, that regardless of the surroundings, that regardless of what might happen next, I want to be able to say that God is in control.

I just realized today that the place where people are born into, decides half of their fate.

I used to think that everyone would more or less be the same, like .. regardless of their surroundings, their circumstance. I believed that if a person tried hard enough then anything is possible. But today, i realized that ... that is not the case...

I found out that the place in which a person is born into, will shape their future and their mentality in one way or another.

Take for example a person that is:

born into a poor family, would value cash alot

born into a family that doesn't know how to reflect love, would value being loved alot

For me, I am born into a blessed family, there have been tough times, but in general, all has been good. Yet I feel disheartened at times, because I cannot relate to families that are not as blessed.

I want understanding, I want to know what it is like to have a bumpy life, to have a bad start. It means so much to me, to be able to understand to your situation.

None but God alone can bring me there, to the place of understanding.

perhaps i'm like over sensitive ? but why do i keep getting the feeling that i'm offending someone ?

love is in abundance in this world, the problem is that people choose not to see it, they dun say it and they have no idea how to express it out.

its so simple, just telling ur friend "I love you" or "you are loved", just to let them know that they are cherished. but yet it is also very very difficult, when was the last time you told someone that you cherished them ? when was the last time you told someone that you loved them ?

Love is in abundance all around, start showing people love. Christ started the ball rolling by giving His life, now you just have to pass it on

most likely will be guitar-ing every saturday before service

people always want to do things, but yet hardly anyone steps up to actually doing it

what's holding you back from doing what you want ? schedule ? obstacles ? lack of manpower ? or the uncertainty ?

i find it to be very very weird that people can so easily voice out about the things they want to do, but yet hardly anyone gets down to really doing it.

truthfully, if you are not gonna do anything about it and simply just babble, then i would rather you not talk about it. talk is cheap, loads of people say of their dreams , but only a small fraction actually put in the effort to accomplish and work towards it.

today i've gotten the full set of the vongola rings (version2)

when the purchase was made, i was initially happy, cause they look awesome ! with the shiny surface, glistening under the lightings, haha. they truely look beautiful, but then ... the bad new is that my brother already broke the sky ring already, so now the sky ring is without the gemstone in the middle.

at first i was really really very irritated, cause its like it broke just like that ! i haven gotten a chance to let it rest on my finger and the thing is that after my brother broke the ring, there was no remorse, neither did he apologise. i can tell that he is guilty though, but seriously, i understand that he is still young and all, but come on dude, isn't part of the basics to simply apologize ? like seriously, he broke the ring and didn't say sorry, and just returned it to me and disappeared from the scene. no sense of responsibility at all !

i really couldn't get over it, its like seriously, when you break something, at least apologize ! when i ask him how ? (since he broke it) he simply replied saying "dun keep asking me how, cause i dunno"

wa ... my blood boil ah , totally infuriated by my brother's lack of responsibility and ownership.

training !

we train to be better, to grow.

hmm... for my spiritual life, i would have to admit that i have not been living on a healthy growth, its my mentality i guess ? somethings seems to be wrong, like i'm not really loving God. do you ever feel that way ? like you feel that you aren't suppose to be this loved, not suppose to where you are today. or feel like you are so lowly, that you yourself never gave it your all. cause that's more or less what I'm feeling now.

just get the terrible feeling and constantly thinking to myself "what am i doing ?!?" and the more i dwell on it, the more demoralized i feel.

shall continue working on what not right, and aim towards getting closer.

Strive to live in TRUTH with my inner being, only God and I really know whats within my own heart.

i'm like super tired now and i dun have any motivation to do my work. school has been good, though i cant say that about my own life though, thank God for His second chance

I should stop thinking so much and focus on what God has in store for me! renewal, renewal will come !

I just realised that i have a terrible schedule, everyday is so packed, so full... i really wonder if i am still able to make time for volunteering. Its a crazy schedule, i'm fully booked on a daily basis from 10am to 6pm, friday i'm booked till 7pm. Saturday is church day, i effectively spend my day at church, after that I either join my parents for dinner or i'll be settling my own dinner. either way, i basically dun get any work done on saturdays. As for sundays, i'm either out for the entire day or at home for the entire day, its the only day of the week that is consistently empty for my schedule, i hardly have anything on sundays, which makes it my only family day.....

where do i find time to squeeze in volunteering ? where do i find time to minister back to the youths ?

weariness opens the door for one to lose control over the mental war. Ever realize that when you are tired, you get agitated easily ? that you get more emotionally unstable ? become more self-centered ?

no matter the circumstance, one should never give in to the mental + spiritual battle, when you lose the mental war, you will be at a great disadvantage in the spiritual war.

Context ..

context is different for everyone, it can differ massively, be worlds apart. no 2 person have the exact same context due to different past experience and different feelings due to the experiences.

I want to give out more to my society, but I need companions also, I dun wanna be alone. I'm not alone and I dun want to believe the devil when he says that I am cause I'm sure that I'm not :D

join me ?? everyone has got power, the power to change/ cause change. God, I need companion ship, companions that share the same visions, to encourage and push each other on.

i realise that searching for a singaporean that uses their youtube account to glorify God is superbly near zero, so far, the only person i found is jedimindless and kennygohweizhi, if you know of other youtubers that are singaporeans and glorify God, let me know, i would be very interested to get to know them

Fire !!

All along i always knew something was missing, but never knew what it was.

LifeGroup is never about church or the weekly meetups. Most people are affected and clouded by the stereotype view on a certain subject.

As the name of this post suggest, what color do you equate a fire to ? red ??

well, i believe that everyone knows that a fire is red, but think again, is it always pure red ? In the midst of the redness, there's probably orange, yellow or even blue that people neglect. I find that church is the same, lifegroup is the same. We are very good in doing the red stuff, the things that people easily equate to church or lifegroup. attending service, weekly meet ups. When a member falls sick or is absent from any one of the above, we contact them and inquire about them, is that not true ? is that not cliche ? is that not the basic form of care and concern that a lifegroup should have ? that a community should have ?

then may i suggest that we are no different from the rest of the world.

What makes us different is our inner flame, not what people equate to us, but what is already in us but yet was neglected. You see, everyone has been granted an angelic heart, a heart that is good. but yet we hardly take the initiative to take the extra step. Lifegroup is not just about meeting weekly, church is not about taking attendance/ show face weekly, but rather, is about the inner flame. if lifegroup and church disaappeared, what happens next ?

Will we still spent as much time reaching out ? will we still seek as desperately ?

something i learned from kairos is to not be bounded by schedule, meaning that we should not be meeting up only on scheduled time slots. even for activities, i know that some form of planning needs to be done, however, God did not restrict us, He granted us freedom. how often have you casually just asked your lifegroup member out simply just for a meal ? or random meet up simply cause you were bored ?

to be truthful, i have deviated from what i originally wanted to blog about. i dun quite know how to explain myself, but i do know that the blue flame that is constantly covered by the red flame is important

Easter Outreach preparation video !! haha, the song videos are currently privatised until they perform once again on regional meeting, so ... till then !

*will be editting it to make it clearer / higher quality :D

hope my FYP will be ok, first day of school and i am sick, also, it is also the first day of school in which FYP groupings are decided.

God Bless me

a common mistake is that people assume that what they like to do is what God has called them to do, either that or they allowed a momentary liking to be mistaken for a love.

Its like, when God calls us to do something, it is always for His people, God dun ask you to do something just so that He can have a reason to bless you. God loves you, that's all, fullstop. God needs no other reason. but yet at times, i myself have made that mistake. simply because i dun like to do it, does not mean that it is not God. God does not just ask us to do the things that we like to do, God calls us to do things that are uncomfortable, things that are different.

Even for momentary likings, it last only for that moment, for that period. But yet for that short time span, we often think that "wow, it's cool!" and think that we will stick to it for a long time, but turns out it is just another skill that we never got really good at.

today's post shall be on beloved OnePiece :D haha

Bounties

I find that Sanji's and Nami bounties are way too down played. Sanji only has 77 million for a bounty and Nami only has a pathetic 16 million ! way too low for Sanji's capabilities and way too low for what Nami is capable of. Firstly, Sanji i believe is worth way more than 77 million ! he should have like maybe 90 million or more as a bounty .. but taking into consideration Luffy's comment, saying that it is already very high for a first bounty, which i agree. The fact that it is a starting amount, would probably be the only reason why it is at 77 million. Next, Nami's pathetic 16 million. From her past story of burglary and current stories of defeating CP9 member's, Mr 1's partner etc, her starting bounty should not differ from Luffy's starting bounty. Personal take is that ... her bounty should be about 30 million. Cause in terms of battle abilities, she can't do much without her weapon, so if the bounty were higher than 30 million, then .. it will definitely be too high.

Another person's bounty to be taken into account is Franky's, 44 million , is that alright ? hmm... thinking about how he smashed 2 CP9 members, and his arsenal of weapons, it will be the factors that might push his bounty up, but yet again, first bounty and .. he has yet to perform any very notable feats.

something for me to take note of is the perception of the navy, seems that bounties are given based on the amount of threat the navy perceive the person to be to them. so ... i believe alot of bounties are downplayed

my schedule for the week:

monday:

1145hrs meet jin shun to collect monopoly deal + sabotuer

1200hrs go down bbss do up poster for consultation (i'll be doing a totally different poster)

tuesday

1230hrs go bbss pray for room opening

1330hrs room opening probably till 1700hrs ?

wednesday

1430hrs AAC in bbss till 1800hrs

1930hrs life group till 2200hrs

thursday

1330hrs go bbss for consultation till around 1600hrs, depending on who turn up lor

1730hrs fpm till 1830hrs

friday

1230hrs go bbss prepare for parade

1430hrs parade until 1800hrs

1930hrs kpm till 2100hrs

everyday need prepare for dinner at 1600hrs

start cooking at 1730hrs and complete cooking + clean up kitchen by 1900hrs

daily schedule, as you can see, i'm going down bbss everyday, haha !

For once i really hope someone could bless me financially.. really low now, never expected for it to be this low though. hope i'll be able to pull through the holidays...

decided to get maestro SD2 or SD3, shall try them out and get either one, depending on which ever one that feels better for me la, haha

Agree ?

Job In the bible, a largely well known story is the story of Job who lost everything overnight but yet still remain faithful. Most people view the story as a story of faith, a story of a man who trusted God 100%. For the week, I learned about something new within the very same story.

Before the whole misfortune thing happened on Job, lets look back at the conversation the devil had with God.

Job 1:6

One day the angels^{a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan^{b]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]} also came with them. ⁷The LORD said to Satan, “Where have you come from?”

Satan answered the LORD, “From roaming throughout the earth, going back and forth on it.”

⁸ Then the LORD said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.”

⁹ “Does Job fear God for nothing?” Satan replied. ¹⁰“Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. ¹¹ But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face.”

¹² The LORD said to Satan, “Very well, then, everything he has is in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.”

Wow! have you ever worked as a sales personal ? cause in the above scripture, God was recommending Job to satan ! God said that Job was "blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil" God was saying that Job is good ! like a salesperson, they usually will recommend to the customers the best product available ! God recognizes that Job was faithful, God fearing and shuns evil . He is saying, Job is great ! go ahead and test him out !

the rest of the story we all know. My first feelings upon knowing that God recommended Job was that, I want to be recommended too !

You alone are God !

God's presence was so tangible today ! :D

just played sabotuer with my sis friends, hmmm... of which .. the only thing i can say is .... among the group, there are .. 2 tacticians only i think .. cause judging from the playing strategy .. people who play mind games.. are more visible. overall, the games quite easy ba, 1st round i totally lost, next 3 rounds i win.. then last round ... haix .. almost.. cause my partner was not a good partner, haha.. my partner sabotuer is my bro .. he reveal the gold for the gold miner XD

tmr is valentines ! haha, what plans you have for valentines ? haha, for me, it shall just be a normal school day, hm... maybe will prayer walk around school, finding people to go with me leh, haven decided on it yet though :D

Happy Valentines everyone :D

Use to sing this in the juniors programme, haha. We're all in the Lord's army !!

I have nothing much to post about actually, just want to clear off some thoughts on my mind right now. for the past 1 to 2 weeks I have been stalking people's tumblr and twitter, browsing through, reading their stuffs.

One of the more interesting phrases i have come across is this

"God never promised that it will be easy, but He promises that it will be worth it"

Isn't that true ? I find that to be very applicable to me, though at times i know it is tough and i do go on the downside from time to time, but no matter what, i always attempt to look on the positive side of things. no matter how bad things may seem to be, how bad can it be if God is in the picture ? it is so encouraging to read of praises to God on people's blog, twitter, tumblr, msn. but yet there are times in which i get demoralized by praises. praise unto God should be a daily thing, not a once in a while or occasional thing. But yet get unto the roads and ask any random christian you find "what's your praise unto God today?" sadly, most will go mum about it, why so ?

just something to think about, but i find that people should give more praises, for each and every single day, one should look towards areas to thank God for.

sure... people always say talk easy.. but as stated above, i know it is not easy, but it will definitely be worth it !

seriously, what on earth is easy ? what is easy to one, is difficult for another . i find it easy to let go of money, even after losing a substantial amount of cash, i still am able to smile. not stating that i am rich. The point i want to say is that, how ready are you able to let go of the negatives given by the devil and embrace the positives given by God ? surely everyone would have experienced a negative in their lives before, but in all occasions, look towards the positives of God and embrace them. cause at the end of the day, it will be worth it !

another thing on my mind is .. a rather common topic among people my age, which is relationships. This Chinese new year, several of my relatives asked "got girlfriend or not ?"

ok pause there, just a question, is it natural or stereotype of question that will be posed to people entering into the adult age ? no idea, i asked a few people from lg, and it seems that some face similar problems and have no idea how to reply. for me, my reply was, still got time. from now till i officially stick to a proper job, when will it be ? 2 years army, 2 years to settle on a job, will be at least 5 years from now (still got poly year 3) . so .. what's the rush ? the dating period is not suppose to be very long either. so i dun see what the big deal is. furthermore, i have yet to decide if i am going to university, if i do, maximum number of years i will remain in uni will probably be 5 years. if you take into consideration the maximum base number of years a person will spent (depending on course, the duration may increase or shrink). plus, most people fail a module or 2 also. so .. it will lengthen the time.

I would want to encourage all other people out there that are pondering over this issue. God will provide, dun worry too much about who you will be spending your future with, cause ultimately, God has His plans for you. we just need to obey and follow.

personally, i do have plans for myself, just very vague and "landmarks" of my own life up till 30years of age. i have yet to state down the details of it yet, but i do know that i want to go somewhere, somewhere where i will be useful.

i got money problem !! please do keep me in prayer !! haha, currently if theres no unexpected expenses, my expenditure : income will result in a value of -$40

not alot right ? but for some reason, my calculation always dun tally, furthermore, the value does not take into account my food expenditures. so ... yea, hope i am blessed enough to be able to pull through the financial issues ! :D

Show me Your face - Andrew Yeo (Singaporean !)

I don't want to worship from afar

Drawing closer to You, is my only desire

You're the one that I've been longing for

Let me dwell in Your presence, To worship and adore

I fall on my knees, Lord I'm yearning for You alone

Deep calls to deep, Lord I know there must be more

Show me Your face, O Lord

Make my heart pure as gold

Standing in awe of You

Your love it surrounds me forever

Show me Your face, O Lord

I want to know You more

I want to stay

Right here with You

All of my days

Only You - I have no idea who wrote this song, but it is super awesome :D

Lord I'm amazed by the love that you gave

On the mount of crucifixion You laid

Your life down for me

The mercy You have given me

Is all that I need

I am saved only by Your grace

Thank You for the cross

My Savior

Take me to the place of communion

Nothing in my hands I bring

Simply to the cross I cling

For all that you have done for me

This love song I will sing

Only You... Can Fill

The vacuum in my heart ~

Only You, can love

Me like no one else

I will worship You

I will worship You ~

How much do you desire for the lost to be saved ? far are you willing to go to save that lost soul ? to spread the good news ? to bring the light to the lives of others ?

I need to break away from my stereotype mindset, if i continue to stereotype people, then i will gradually find more faults with them, bearing more grudges as the days go by.

I can't be certain if i am merely stubborn or judging people as stereotypes, i have heaps of expectations of people, some of which does not irritate me as much as other, while there exist a handful of attributes that seriously ignites my anger. either way, its not healthy for the soul to be constantly finding faults at others, it serves as a stepping stone for the devil to crawl into my heart.

quoted from "you'll come"-hillsongs

i have decided....

i have resolved...

to wait upon you Lord..

i'll hold on to these words for a little while longer, making it a habit to constantly wait upon the God almighty :D

人费神省，苏能无果。

not sure if it is written correctly .. but .. point is, humans are not God, everyone makes mistakes.

i want to be firm, not stubborn .

i dun know what is right and what is wrong, but i do know that i value my beliefs, i value my friends around me, brothers and sisters in christ, my family.

sacrifices are needed all the time, what is right and what is wrong, i leave it for the spectators to decide for themselves ah, personally, i will not go against my own belief.

I know i am inadequate, spiritually, mentally and physically, i have not much authority on the people around me, i have no idea how they view me. but for the sake of their good, i will do whatever it takes.

God sent his son down to die on the cross, cause he loved us so, he broke his own heart for us.

I will do whatever it takes to bless others, even if it means i have to hurt myself.

dun worry, i wun emo, i got used to all these routine already, the constant cycle, i acknowledge my position and am aware of my own stand and capabilities. no matter how things turn out in the end, i'll still praise God, not what i lost, but what i am blessed with :D

getting out of my comfort zone, doing things that i dun usually do.

Sometimes i just require a push every now and then to get me moving, similar to a horse, at time to time, you need to slap its butt to get it to move. I guess the same applies to me, need someone to wake me up every now and then to get me to work and do the things that i should.

things that are suppose to be habitual are not yet in place. things that should have been disposed of is still left uncleared.

to get closer, i need to persevere.. need to P.U.S.H. !

great sacrifices are sometimes needed to achieve greater heights.

I'll make the sacrifice cause I wanna give you 100%, not gonna hold back !

for the greater good !